tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11307881.post1747553533686349847..comments2009-07-31T19:59:43.096+02:00Jacob Matthanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10571251800458009507noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-11307881.post-62534239010326633492009-07-31T19:59:43.096+02:002009-07-31T19:59:43.096+02:00I have an experience different to this but the fear seems the same. It’s about swimming. I wanted to learn swimming. I’ve been learning swimming for the past 2 years. However, even now, as soon as I reach the line that separates deep end and shallow end, I freeze. I cannot go any further. . I feel unable to breath, and cant breath normally. Even when I am writing this I can feel myself sweating. This was going on for the past 2 years. I am unable to over come my fear. But if the instructor is there nearby me, I can swim to the deep end and come. No problem. But alone, I cannot cross the line. Its like I am dead if I go an inch beyond that line. But I did try to go to the deep end alone one time and did it. There was nobody in the pool .I reached somehow the other end and felt extremely happy. But then I froze again. I didn’t know how to go back. I had the board in one had and other hand holding on the rail at the end. I was thinking how do i turn and kick back from there? I didn’t learn that before! I just hung there as if I am just enjoying the cool water . This was one of the many times I believe there is God., I saw out of the blue another teacher coming my way. She spotted me and was shocked to see me there. She helped me getting back to the shallow water . My instructor told me never to do that again unless someone is there with me.<br />I am still caged in my fear when it comes to deep waters. I still go once every week to learn. After 5 weeks, you are free, but I don’t know when I will be free:)meerasworldhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09595039881196315514noreply@blogger.com